Dad has been jobless for 8 months and it's just mum and i supporting the whole household. It is tough and I am not going to deny. Yes, I do finally understand how hard it is for my dad to support the whole family back when I was still schooling and my mum jobless without a word of complaint.

But... now that I am working, I still find myself barely having enough to spend. With a take-home salary of $1399.50, I have to pay off house bills, giving my dad some allowance, support my mum with $200 for groceries (my mum earns lesser than me), paying back my aunt my $100 each month for my school fee owed, and then comes my own bills and expenses. So technically more than half my salary goes to the family every month, I have only $799 left. Of which $35 will be for my phone, and $70 for my traveling, and I'll try to save $400 (barely) a month which leaves me with $290 for myself. Sounds more than enough since I'm single isn't it? But truth is, whenever I'm out with my parents during the weekends, I am always the one footing the bill. So tell me again, $290 for 4 weekends worth of footing the bill + meetup with friends + my own meals. How is it even enough?

Yes I am complaining but I can't help it. My parents' standard reply when I complain "then stop eating out so much and meeting all your friends, spending on unnecessary money online." Really? REALLY? It makes me mad to hear all these. Why can't I use my own money to do what I deem is worth? Why can't I shop online to get the things which I have no time to get? It's not as if I am spending so much. No. I spend within my limit. I know all these complaints are getting nowhere cos they are my family and I cannot be this stingy. But its just all the stress that is building up within me. Expecting me to contribute way more than I can for the family when I am already doing so yet it is not satisfying enough................... urghhh is this life.

Can my dad find a proper job already. I'm barely surviving here.

p.s i know there are people way worst than me and i am considered to be way better than them to complain. but thn really, this is the only outlet for me to vent my frustrations without bothering anyone. don't think my friends understands anyway.