many times we're caught in a dilemma of you liking a person, who likes another person, who likes another person. it's a never ending vicious cycle. but well, that's just human. we're fickle. 

but that doesn't mean that the percentage of you liking someone who likes you back is low. that explains the many couples we see on each valentine's day or well, on the streets errday. not to mention, married couples too. 

but alas! there is always a reason behind breakups, divorce, cheating, and many other aspects. 

i understand that this is a very very random post. prolly inspired by a drama im watching now. and all that's derived from the drama is a question: 'to love, or to be loved?' 

loving someone comes from the heart, not the mind. you can't force yourself to love someone whom you have no interest in. to love, can be the start of a wonderful chapter, of you daydreaming and being so in love. but that can also turn into a misery especially when the someone you loved so dearly does not reciprocate your love. at this time, you'd rather be loved, than to love.

it is a blessing to be loved. to be showered with surprises or y'know those kinda great feelings that you know someone will be there to catch you when you fall, to assure you that you're not alone. but this may also turn into a kind of pressure because us being human, we all yearn for a reciprocation of love. this person may have loved you, but all you feel are signs of blessing and not love. or rather, not the same kind of affection he/she wants. it may in turn become a nightmare because you know that this kind of 'being loved' feeling will be gone once you reject him/her.

but at the end of the day, i would rather choose to be loved. because that kind of blissful feeling is hard to come by. especially to someone like me. 

okay, im lost in thoughts. tried my best to put every fragment i have inside my mind into a short passage. that's the best i can do haha. a little update bout myself :

1. got a new iphone 5s

2. exams are finally over and its the holiday now

3. nope not working cos AO currently don't need ppl for the weekdays

4. rotting at home

5. spending money like free flow

6. got to start saving up every month

7. praying hard that i'll pass my exams