Floors underneath our feet are crumbling

"the lesser you care, the lesser you'll get hurt." (but not to those who cares bout me of cos)

idk bout others but i tend to be able to distinguish btwn ppl who makes friends by judging and those who makes friends with a pure heart.

maybe cos since young, i haven't been the popular kid in school that everyone wants to befriend, neither am i the cool kid that has a different sense of style. i'm just that typical-stay-in-a-corner kinda girl. i am rather a awkward kid, i can say. altho i did try to make friends with others but it all backfired and ended up with my female classmates hating on me, and worst, the male classmates thought i have a crush on em and some even mocking me.

i know i have repeated this story many times but my sec 1 and 2 has been the worst time of my life so far. yes it does get better when i grew older. but this incident has taught me something. don't be over-friendly. people don't appreciate that.

growing up, i moved on to ite, and then poly. it was rly rly fun. to be able to fit in, found my place in my current cliques.

lower secondary were nothing but painful memories. yet, memories that serves as a reminder every now and then. upper sec is definitely missed tho!

even till now, i still can't accept those guys who made fun of me. no, never. a scorpio forgives but never forget. they judge. just because i'm not pretty, slim, nor smart, they made fun of my size, comparing them with my other female classmates, not wanting to be friends with me. well of course you can say that they were still young and innocent then. but hey look, words can kill alright.

no, im not changing for them. despite me not liking how i look now, i accept who i am. i will not change for those that hurt me cos they ain't nth to me. i'm not gonna be typical, proving others wrong. i will change when i want to. it's my body. don't like it? shoo. it's an open door. you can't please everyone.

now, back to the topic. yes, prolly cos of this incident, i can already know who are the ones that will be there to catch you when you fall. those, i call them my best friends. i love them. nuff said.

it is very very obvious when one makes friends through judging. a very good example will be when a course mate (whom you know by the name, but not friends) befriends your friend. you tried your best to make friends but to only know that you've been brushed aside. you consider her as a friend. yet, you're merely an acquaintance to that course mate.

jengjeng. i don't wanna say no more. it's just those sucky feelings i get. but who cares, i have my clique now. shall keep the nts close to my heart.

side note: thankful for the people who stayed. cheers to eternal f/s <3 p="">