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Bad monday
Monday, January 27, 2014
Hate how my mum is forever not giving any constructive/encouraging/comforting words to console me. Imagine coming home with news bad enough to make you feel down the whole night. Friends around are making sure you're okay and at the end of the day when you share your problems with your mum, you expect a hug, or at least some words of comfort to make it feel okay. To let you know that they have your back.

Really don't get why my mum is unlike others. Why must she always have to use sarcasm? Me coming home, telling her that I din get accepted into Accor internship is me, ready to breakdown. Yet her first words were

"Chiam, you see luh no hotels wants you." 

Wtf was that suppose to mean? Just cos of 1 rejection means no hotels wants me? Does she belittle me that much? Shouldn't mothers be like 

"Oh dear, what happened? Don't worry, just put in your best for your next interview alright? Cheer up, *hugs*" 

She was oh-so-ready to put me down without asking me why. I'm feeling so terrible, so stressed out. All I want is a pair of listening ears. No shoulders nvm, but at least just her listening to all that I've got to say and not rubbing salt to the wound anymore. I know I've mentioned that Accor isn't what I wanted. But I've also said that I will do my best for the interview. When she went on and on about the things I din wanna hear, I went 

"Can't you just say something constructive?!" Then she retaliated with "See, see? With this attitude, you can't even accept what your parents said, how are you going out to the society next time?" 

Hey, I'm at the verge of breaking down and yet all I got were these 'I-already-know' words from you? My mum? If this is her way of agitating me to make me strive better, then all i wanna say is that she's doing it all wrong. I'm not as strong as she think I am. I need love and concern from her. Not all these bullshit. So what if its the truth? It hurts. 
@ 2:27 AM