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Monday, September 9, 2013
Hi, back to blog about my thoughts again. This time, its all about age and bgr. Idk what has got me thinking, but soon I'll be hitting the age of 21. Officially stepping into the adulthood. Some people may say that it's another chapter in life. However, I am already worrying for my future. Not about my job. For now. It's about my relationship.

I've this fear, or rather, this intuition that I will not have the chance to get married and have my own happy family. That I'd be single all my life. Perhaps its the people around me that got me thinking. Years past and my close friends are one by one getting attached. Some already married with kids. And there I am, like a couch potato, rotting my life. They say "Live while we're young". But it seem otherwise for me. People of my age or younger are busy partying, studying, dating. I don't like to party, not pretty, slim, rich, smart, friendly and outgoing. I'm just nowhere near these it's as though as I'm a misfit.

Of all my 21 years of life I haven't got in to a relationship before. Well of course, I'd rather not have 'before', y'see. No one likes to deal with heartbreaks. Having seen friends being suicidal, crying their hearts out in the toilet cubicle in school and there I am, feeling so helpless but to see them cry just makes things worst.

Well but all in all, I believe in fate and destiny and perhaps time's just not ripe yet to meet the guy whose just for me. My shining knight in armor, my prince charming or whatsoever you call them. I'm just gonna wait. For the guy who will not be a past, but the present and  the future. Y'know, the one and only. Cheers!
@ 8:40 AM