Floors underneath our feet are crumbling

ISQ formal class photo!

A new blogskin, another chapter in life! (: Time flies. It's 2012 already. Guess what, I've already 'graduated' from ITE. These past two years had been a very fulfilling one. Really. God made me overcome my fear of taking buses (cos I hate to squeeze with ppl), made me realise that with will, there is a way. I can do it. Before I entered ITE, I couldn't even look at ITE students in the eye.

Why? Cos I'm afraid that I'd be like them. Failures in others' eyes. Who knows, I became one of them. Gosh, feels like the end of the world that time. I even did silly stuffs like going down personally to RP to 'beg them' to let me enter their nursing and said stuffs like "I'm willing to retake my math." OH GOD. I was that desperate. I bet many are like that. Reason being, I don't wanna be looked down upon.

Alright, so I surrendered. ITE was the only choice. I can't afford studying private y'see. Well, now that I survived two years in ITE, i still can't accept the way how strangers look at us with those eye. I mean, I still can't accept myself wearing the uniform out besides school. I have to change. But just because of this matter, it made me push myself even harder. To excel and show the world that we can do it.

Yes, a stepping stone was what I call ITE. Faster complete these two years and off to poly I go. Cos i always believe that whatever I believe in, will come true eventually. Don't ask me when, but it will one day. Believe. Now that I have finished my studies and waiting for poly to start, I suddenly don't feel like proceeding. I thought I could just proceed on to poly, forgetting all about ITE. No I can't. I'll miss my awesome friends. Friends. No longer classmates. Especially that clique of mine in school :D Not forgetting, my awesome CAs too!You know who you are.

Afterall, it was ITE that made it possible for me to get into poly right? Now.. Another thing that is weighing on my mind. It had been my dream to get into the hospitality and tourism sector at NYP (apparently that's the nearest) after my O's during sec 5. Now that I have the chance, why I don't feel excited or happy at all?

Is it cos I've studied some of the modules before and that it's really not easy at all even at ITE. Needless to say, poly. How to survive is that question that I've been questioning myself. Urgh. So irritated. Now that I'm 20, I'm going to poly. Can't help but keep thinking about the age difference I'll have. The average age of students getting into poly is like 17-18? I have problems making friends with people younger than me cos I myself behave like their age -.- Haven't got a job, haven't got my first $1,000 to my name, and like what? I'll be getting just a diploma cert when I'm 24?

Alright, am being darn negative here. Whatever it is, these are my concerns. Really pray hard that there are people I know, or there'll be people like my friends! :D

It's been a really long and wordy post here. Hah! Photos below. Not in order. Lazy already~ I guess the next class photo will be about the graduation ceremony! Aww! (':