I was always wondering do i matter to them.
They don't seem to cherish what they have
and always complaining that i have not been
contributing much to the family. For all i know
is that i have already done what i can do for the
family and they always think that im not good
enough to be their daughter. But please be noted
that there are people out there worst than me.
Maybe there was a change in me.. But do they
know that i was force to change under several
circumstances? NO! All they knew was that my
friends were the people who influeneced me. But
they are totally wrong. Because i have such
wonderful friends, i have the courage to face
everything. What i desire my is family's care,
concern and freedom. But i have neither one of
them. So whats the point? I can't have freedom,
neither do i have care and concern, so all i can
do is to envy. And is there anything wrong with
envying other people? I treasure the times i have
with my friends and maybe this is the last year
we are together. They have no idea how stressed
i am over these stupid family matters. I may seem
that i don't care. But in fact i care alot that they don't
even know. I care my them, but do they? Maybe
my mum would. But i just can't stand my dad. Why
can't he understand me and treat me more like his
daughter rather than a maid? I do feel that i was
more likely being treated like a maid more than
a daughter. He would always ask me to do the
laundry, take water for him, wash the dishes,
mop the floor, empty the rubbish, fold the clothings,
do this, do that. And in the end claimed that he
was the one who did everything and i contributed
nothing. I know he sides my mum. But can he
sometimes put himself in my shoes? I really can't
stand it much longer. If i don't type it out and keep
it in my heart, i might burst or go crazy. I didn't
want them to know that i was crying as i don't want
them to criticise me and my friends again. Enough
is enough. I just hope that they would see this post
on day and regret that what they did was wrong.
I really wish that they would be guity. For now,
just let them continue. Scold for all they want,
do what they want. I would not oppose or give
any comments. What for? I would be the loser in
the end wad. So i don't see the need to oppose.
Don't make life difficult for them neither for me.
I DON'T WANNA CARE A SINGLE ****ING THING!
